Thursday, August 30, 2012

henry

thank you for all the love, care, prayers and concern over the past few weeks...

we are devastated to share that our sweet boy
henry patrick 
passed away on august 21st

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heroic henry, as we called him
fought a hard fight
but ultimately was unable to breathe on his own
...
we know in our hearts that he is in a much better place
and we are grateful that he is at peace

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goodness, how i miss my little love bug.
xoxo

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

flashbulb

that's what they call it, right?

a flashbulb moment-
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that instant
when your

life

stops
and
suspends

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when your hopes and dreams and plans

change and shatter
and

disappear

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...
friday, august 10th
6:33pm
...

i gave birth

...
8lbs 2oz, 21.5"
of
baby boy

blue
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...
after a long, but healthy pregnancy
followed by a long, but wonderful abc labor and delivery
we didn't get our skin-to-skin and delayed cord clamping and long-dreamed-of introductions

instead

he was whisked away-
a little suction
we thought
meconium
we knew

laying
helpless
in the big recovery bed
when doctors came back
so we could "make decisions about our son"

deprived of oxygen
brain trama
seizures
cooling

now
we wait

tests 
and questions without answers
time and healing


but no plans
only prayer

...
my love
henry patrick waldo jagger
8.10.12

photos: amanda xoxo

Thursday, August 2, 2012

waiting game

today... we are 39 weeks

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anxious and ready
to meet this long-dreamed-of
babe
...
camped out in blissful little compton
waking to the sound of the swallows
enjoying beach walks
cool breezes
and the luxury of lounging

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all while
counting contractions
...

news soon-
we hope!


1st photo by amanda, taken 33 weeks / bassinet, ready for babe