henry

thank you for all the love, care, prayers and concern over the past few weeks...

we are devastated to share that our sweet boy

henry patrick 

passed away on august 21st

...

heroic henry, as we called him

fought a hard fight

but ultimately was unable to breathe on his own

...

we know in our hearts that he is in a much better place

and we are grateful that he is at peace

    

goodness, how i miss my little love bug.
xoxo

flashbulb

that's what they call it, right?

a flashbulb moment-

that instant

when your

life

stops

and

suspends

when your hopes and dreams and plans

change and shatter

and

disappear

...

friday, august 10th

6:33pm

...

i gave birth

...

8lbs 2oz, 21.5"

of
baby boy

blue

...

after a long, but healthy pregnancy

followed by a long, but wonderful abc labor and delivery

we didn't get our skin-to-skin and delayed cord clamping and long-dreamed-of introductions

instead

he was whisked away-

a little suction

we thought

meconium

we knew

laying

helpless

in the big recovery bed

when doctors came back

so we could "make decisions about our son"

deprived of oxygen

brain trama

seizures

cooling

now

we wait

tests 

and questions without answers

time and healing

but no plans

only prayer

...

my love

henry patrick waldo jagger

8.10.12

photos: amanda xoxo

waiting game

today... we are 39 weeks



anxious and ready
to meet this long-dreamed-of
babe
...
camped out in blissful little compton
waking to the sound of the swallows
enjoying beach walks
cool breezes
and the luxury of lounging

all while

counting contractions

...

news soon-

we hope!

1st photo by amanda, taken 33 weeks / bassinet, ready for babe