Tuesday, August 20, 2013

celebrating henry

throughout this past pregnancy
i kept peaking ahead
to this month-


with a scramble of emotions-
love, fear, anxiety, pain, excitement

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the due date of our daughter
the anniversary of losing henry

i needed to find a way
to remember our sweet son
and the excitement i felt
on the day he was born-

the day i became a mom

in a way
that wasn't totally 

i needed a celebration.

to find a way to honor 
what a joy he was
in our lives


if it was only for just 
11 days

something to share 
with our family
who felt the loss of henry
almost as completely as we did

a new tradition
that our future children
would love 

we planned a birthday beach night-
our favorite kind of easy summer celebration

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a sand-side picnic

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our favorite people

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mama-decorated birthday cake

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taps at sunset

and then
after the sun had gone down

we sent paper lanterns
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into the night sky

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decorated with our 
wishes + prayers

for henry patrick

on his first birthday
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and it was

a celebration

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with love and thanks

Sunday, August 18, 2013


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emily waldo jagger
arrived thursday
august 8th
at 9:40am

oh, oh...
there is so very much to share

and i will

but i'm completely distracted
by her milky, deep-sleep sighs 
on my chest

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it's been almost exactly a month
since i've posted
and it's been a bursting one for sure-
a roller coaster 
of summer goodness
paralyzing anxiety
and love

love. love. love.

with each 
deep, deep breath 
that i take
weighted only by 6lbs 12oz
of slumbering sweetness
i can feel 
my heart
being stitched 
from the bottom 

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sweet birdie

photos: orchardcove