Tuesday, August 20, 2013

celebrating henry

throughout this past pregnancy
i kept peaking ahead
to this month-

august

with a scramble of emotions-
love, fear, anxiety, pain, excitement

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the due date of our daughter
the anniversary of losing henry

i needed to find a way
to remember our sweet son
and the excitement i felt
on the day he was born-

the day i became a mom

in a way
that wasn't totally 
sad
or 
scary

i needed a celebration.

to find a way to honor 
what a joy he was
in our lives

even

if it was only for just 
11 days
.

something to share 
with our family
who felt the loss of henry
almost as completely as we did

a new tradition
that our future children
would love 

so...
we planned a birthday beach night-
our favorite kind of easy summer celebration

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a sand-side picnic

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our favorite people

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mama-decorated birthday cake

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taps at sunset
...

and then
after the sun had gone down

we sent paper lanterns
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into the night sky

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decorated with our 
wishes + prayers

for henry patrick

on his first birthday
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and it was

a celebration
...

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with love and thanks
xo






Sunday, August 18, 2013

she

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emily waldo jagger
arrived thursday
august 8th
at 9:40am


oh, oh...
there is so very much to share

and i will

but i'm completely distracted
by her milky, deep-sleep sighs 
on my chest

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it's been almost exactly a month
since i've posted
and it's been a bursting one for sure-
a roller coaster 
of summer goodness
paralyzing anxiety
and love

love. love. love.

with each 
long-awaited 
deep, deep breath 
that i take
weighted only by 6lbs 12oz
of slumbering sweetness
i can feel 
my heart
being stitched 
from the bottom 
up...

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welcome
sweet birdie
welcome
xoxo


photos: orchardcove