weekend wave report

sunday morning

we were up with the sun

to waves 

that cape surfers dream about:

clean and head-high

my husband was a happy man

and life felt pretty good

...

i stayed on shore

(and wrangled the dogs)

because honestly

with my luck lately

dressing up like a seal

to splash around in waters shared with great whites

just doesn't seem like such a great idea!

not much beats the outer cape in the fall!

   

celebrating love

today

is our fourth anniversary

...

married during a hurricane

we've weathered life's storms

together

hand in hand

...

and that

is something to

celebrate

...

so today

we'll do just that-

celebrate

love

.

a love so great

that dreamed and dreamed and dreamed

and created a beautiful little boy

who burst our hearts wide open 

and a love that is still here

when everything shattered around us

...

today 

for

tomorrow

we love

.

xoxo

change

change is here

the slight chill in the evening air

a crispness in the sound of the breeze through the leaves

shorter days

life...

moving forward

so

very 

differently

than we imagined
...

we've begun our re-entry into the daily-life routine

that has always felt so comfortable

and now

so lonely
...

reid starts back at school today

and i've got a dog to walk

and laundry to wash

and emails to send

calls to return

busy busy busy for sure

but all a little empty too

...

this self-take, shot yesterday

on a birthday beach walk with our 3!! year old blondie-girl

who makes us smile 

everyday

henry

thank you for all the love, care, prayers and concern over the past few weeks...

we are devastated to share that our sweet boy

henry patrick 

passed away on august 21st

...

heroic henry, as we called him

fought a hard fight

but ultimately was unable to breathe on his own

...

we know in our hearts that he is in a much better place

and we are grateful that he is at peace

    

goodness, how i miss my little love bug.
xoxo

flashbulb

that's what they call it, right?

a flashbulb moment-

that instant

when your

life

stops

and

suspends

when your hopes and dreams and plans

change and shatter

and

disappear

...

friday, august 10th

6:33pm

...

i gave birth

...

8lbs 2oz, 21.5"

of
baby boy

blue

...

after a long, but healthy pregnancy

followed by a long, but wonderful abc labor and delivery

we didn't get our skin-to-skin and delayed cord clamping and long-dreamed-of introductions

instead

he was whisked away-

a little suction

we thought

meconium

we knew

laying

helpless

in the big recovery bed

when doctors came back

so we could "make decisions about our son"

deprived of oxygen

brain trama

seizures

cooling

now

we wait

tests 

and questions without answers

time and healing

but no plans

only prayer

...

my love

henry patrick waldo jagger

8.10.12

photos: amanda xoxo

waiting game

today... we are 39 weeks



anxious and ready
to meet this long-dreamed-of
babe
...
camped out in blissful little compton
waking to the sound of the swallows
enjoying beach walks
cool breezes
and the luxury of lounging

all while

counting contractions

...

news soon-

we hope!

1st photo by amanda, taken 33 weeks / bassinet, ready for babe

(growing) family

after my lovely summer baby shower

in little compton

my dear friend amanda

stuck around to snap some family pictures

featuring my 33-week bump

...

we went to some favorite little compton spots...

town landing beach

(sadly, not a surfing day!)

nellie knows where we are headed!

   

warren's point beach club

and then home again

to enjoy sunset

with a sweet serenade

(baby LOVES music!)

...

amanda, we cannot thank you enough for capturing these sweet moments

of great excitement and anticipation

before our little family becomes three (or four, sorry nellie!)

xoxo