that's what they call it, right?
a flashbulb moment-
that instant
when your
life
stops
and
suspends
when your hopes and dreams and plans
change and shatter
and
disappear
...
friday, august 10th
6:33pm
...
i gave birth
...
i gave birth
...
8lbs 2oz, 21.5"
of
baby boy
baby boy
blue
...
after a long, but healthy pregnancy
followed by a long, but wonderful abc labor and delivery
we didn't get our skin-to-skin and delayed cord clamping and long-dreamed-of introductions
instead
he was whisked away-
a little suction
we thought
meconium
we knew
laying
helpless
in the big recovery bed
when doctors came back
so we could "make decisions about our son"
deprived of oxygen
brain trama
seizures
cooling
now
we wait
tests
and questions without answers
time and healing
but no plans
only prayer
...
my love
henry patrick waldo jagger
8.10.12
photos: amanda xoxo
16 comments:
Sending you all tons of love and hugs. I love you so much. xxoo
Sending strength and hope and love.... Beautiful photos, Amanda. What a treasure.
This makes my heart hurt. Sending strength and peace, and hope for a miracle.
s & r, be strong...all our prayers and thoughts are with you & henry. love & thinking of you both... keep strong little man henry. xoxo, blair
Thoughts and prayers for you!
Perfectly sunny morning broke into torrential thunderstorm as I was reading this. No words. Wishing you all the strength in the world.
Wishing you strength and hope. Thoughts and prayers to you.
Oh, sweet sister. My heart aches for you and Reid. Sending you all our love and strength.
Sarah, Reid and Henry - you are all in my thoughts and most certainly my prayers. Sending an endless stream of love your way.
that last comment was from me. I am here with my mom (frannie), our heads together in sorrow, but our hearts joined in hope.
so much hope, love and prayers being sent to you from NYC...xxx
A longtime 'lurker' on your blog...please know my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family all the way from Minnesota...xoxo
sending you prayers and strength.
We are sending you, Reid, and Henry all our love, strength, and hope.
You don't know me - I am on Symphony where Reid is also a member.
Beautiful, sad, poignant.
My heart goes out to you and yours.
Wicca Davidson
Came across your blog from a pattern that I saw online and I started reading your posts. I don't know you but want you to know that I will send a prayer for you and your family. Wishing you strength and hope. Your blog is beautifully done.
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